So, I'm sorry I haven't written an update in a while. There's actually two reason for that. The first is I think my mom is the only one who reads this (Hi Mom!). The second is I'm not good at creating a "Web Presence." I don't really like it, to tell the truth. I don't post much on Facebook and obviously I'm having trouble keeping up this blog. Maybe it's because I don't think my life is interesting enough for me to shove it down other people's computer monitors, but that just sounds too prideful. Maybe I'm lazy. Maybe I'm afraid that blogging and posting about every detail of my life will make me a hypocrite (I hate those people, don't you?), or maybe I'm just nervous people won't like what I have to say. I don't know.
This is my own Catch 22, I guess, because that's the exact opposite of how I feel about my music. I want everyone to hear it and I think it's great. Really great. It probably isn't really that great, but to me (and my mom, I hope) it is. That is where I've put all my psychological eggs. I may be apathetic, lazy, short and have bad skin, but I sure can write a song -- wanna hear it? You'll like me better afterward.
Blogging and posting on Facebook is just an extension of my already mundane, regular 9-5 life. Music is my fantasy life, full of money, talent and good skin.
Everyone always comments on how different I am on stage, and I always nod and say something simple like, "Yup" or "You never can trust the quite ones." But the simple fact is I don't know what makes me different up there or behind a desk at my job. I think the same on stage. I move the same as I do when I listen to a CD by myself. Which one is the "real me"? I don't know. Both I suppose. I am an only child -- maybe that explains all of it. Shy, but constantly needing approval and attention. I'm sure my psychology student fiancee would have a field day with all of this.
Anyway, too much deep thought for now. I could go on and on about this subject (ME!) for ages. Good things have happened music-wise since my last post, and good things are coming down the pike, so I'll get back to this blog on a regular-ish basis. Until then, goodnight Allie. Goodnight Kevin. (Good night mom).
